You and the people you never see

Wednesday, November 04, 2015


The people you never see can be all sort of things—a chance you did not take, a story you never read, a poem you never wrote, or simply a tear that never fell. And there are a lot of stories about it, but the end game is always the same—just another what if.

Remember the cliche Love is Blind? Turns out it's not only applicable to those who love without questions. It's also applicable to those who never saw what they could have because they were blindsided—by friendships, by fear, by cowardice, or simply by the lack of awareness.

The people you never see are not the ones who are literally nowhere near you. They are not the ones who live miles away from home and whose absence creates a sinkhole in your day-to-day. They are the ones you bump in to on ordinary days and you did not even bother to stop and say Hi. They aren't the ones who sit across the table either. They are the ones who stood by the table waiting for you to decide which seat to take so they can pick the next seat and sit beside you.

The people you never see are not always the ones whose numbers are on top of your speed dial list. They are often the ones buried somewhere in your phone book. Wishing every time the phone rings, it’s you. The people you never see are not exactly the first people you think of when you want to go see a movie. They are usually the ones who ask you time and time again if you can spare today for coffee.

The people you never see are not the ones that pop in your mind when you hear a decent love song on Spotify. They are the ones who come up with numerous mix tapes thinking that maybe when you hear it, you'll finally get it. The people you never see are not the ones you chase after in a game of tags. They are the ones who stop at the sight of you running, willing to be it for you.

The people you never see are sometimes the one standing in front of you. Waiting for you to finally stop chasing after the people who never really look at you the way you should be looked at.

They could be around you and you would never know a thing about them. I can't blame you for being so dense.

But there's also this.

Sometimes the people you never see are the ones you chose not to. Because maybe you are afraid of commitments or that maybe he is too much for you. Maybe she is so damaged you don't know if you can handle her. Or maybe he's not anywhere near the standards or ideals you have set.

So maybe you chose not to stop and say Hi. Maybe you've put someone else's name on top of your speed dial list because for you, they belong there. Maybe you lied and said you didn't like coffee just so you could have a valid reason to turn down the invitation. Maybe you chose to ignore the numerous mix tapes he sent your way because you don't want to think of his face when you hear it. And maybe, just maybe, you chose to run away at the sight of the person chasing you because you don't want to be it for them.

You have your reasons for letting this one pass. You have your reasons for saying no.

I'm sure the numerous romance movies you've seen have taught you what makes a person someone else. You could make an excuse out of the movies that taught you a thing or two about romance. How you wanted that romantic John Cusack showing up with a boombox in Say Anything or that to me, you are perfect kind of romance from Andrew Lincoln in Love Actually.

We get it, and maybe the person you never saw got it too. You know what you want and she simply was not it. 

But let's expound this.

If you know what you want, that makes it easy for you to say no. Knowing what you want is a valid argument that could make us forget this discussion ever happened. But let me ask you this:

If you know what you want, would it be a lot easier for you to accept that you are not what someone wants?

I'm not trying to clip your wings here. I'm not trying to convince you either. I'm just a fan of turning the tables.

I wish you won't have to find yourself in that spot someday. I wish you could continue to be the one being chased after because boy, oh boy. You would't want a taste of your own medicine.

Ask the people who were never seen. Ask the girl who got more drunk off rejection than rum and getting sober isn't just about downing several cups of coffee. Ask him who watched you fall in love with someone else and could only wish his time would come, like the movies. Ask that girl who could love you enough that you wouldn't want somebody else.

Ask them because life is a roller coaster and I am about 90% sure you'll be at the bottom once or twice in your lifetime. You will find yourself in ironic situations like this and someday it will probably suck when you come to realize how many chances you have missed, or why you never saw it when you were looking. Ask them because I want you to be ready.

One day it might suck knowing you could have won had you put in the bet.

The chances you did not take will come and haunt you one day. And you will remember about the first paragraph I wrote here. How do I know? That's how things work. That is how rejection comes in full circle. And believe me, I have seen a lot of this and I could only wish the irony was that funny.

And maybe I'm not the most credible person to say this but here's the thing:

Maybe he's still there. Maybe she's still waiting. Maybe it's not yet too late.

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